bardic_lady: (azkadelia - translating)


So here's what happened. )
bardic_lady: (ratatouille - those days)

Also, I got an interview call for the CTG job. I would describe myself at this moment as... emotionally conflicted.
bardic_lady: (wh13 - myka grow up)
When last we met, our heroine had just passed her oral defence and become a Master of Arts, Theatre History. There was great rejoicing.

That very evening, my laptop got the Win 7 Total Security virus. This virus is insidious and evil and people who invent this sort of thing should be shot. So... it honest to goodness totalled my laptop. Like, it even destroyed the HP recovery partition. The computer services guys could not restore Windows 7 on my computer. They managed to get it back to Vista, which is where it started, and, since I don't have my Windows 7 boot disk here, I will reupgrade it when my parents get here a week from Thursday. There were three positive things about the situation.
1. I keep a fairly up to date backup and they were able to boot the computer into Linux off a disc, so I could grab the notes for the last paper that I had to write.
2. I am still a university student, so backing up all my data, wiping the computer, and doing a full system restore is only going to cost $50.
3. My old laptop, the one that was dying and making terrifying whirring noises in August of '09 when I first got to Canada, was still sitting on my shelf. It still makes terrifying whirring noises. It's making them right now. But it's a computer and it allowed me to write my last paper this week.
So I want to be clear. Things could have been MUCH MUCH WORSE. Things were, however, pretty bad. I'm hoping that I will have my computer back tomorrow. It will be at least Friday week before I have things like Office and Photoshop back, since I'm not going to install them on Vista and then have to reinstall them on 7.

Speaking of that last paper, it was like pulling teeth to write. Took days. My brain emphatically did not want to write that paper (Similarities between Shakespeare print editors and Shakespeare dramaturgs). But I finished it this evening, had someone else look over it to make sure it didn't totally suck, and submitted it to the prof. I am officially done with grad school. Whoa.

(Now to pack up my apartment, move back to California, and... oh yeah, get a JOB)
bardic_lady: (hypatia)
I watched Agora, as one of the essay topics my students could choose relates to the film. I wish very much that I hadn't. Though the story is, I think, of great value and something that people should be exposed to, it was utterly gut-wrenching to watch.

The destruction of the great Library of Alexandria is, to my mind, one of the greatest tragedies that humanity has inflicted on itself. The loss of the books and plays, the knowledge of centuries is senseless and irrational. To burn books because they belonged to someone not of your faith... To destroy centuries of knowledge because one person believes something different than you... It is monstrous and heinous. One can only imagine where we might now be, what we might now know, had we the materials that were destroyed in the Library.

I have always felt a particular irrational connection with the Library of Alexandria, as my father very much wanted to name me Hypatia, after the philosopher-scientist who was, some stories say, martyred defending the Library, or at least the principles of the Library. (He still does, we have semi-annual conversations about how unlikely it is that he'll convince me to change my name.)

Watching a mob, even of actors, destroy just a representation of the Library of Alexandria made me nauseated and tense. I can't stop crying. I just... don't understand what could drive that level of wanton hatred and willful ignorance. I don't understand why it should matter so much if the person next to you believes the same things about the nature of the universe as you do. Which, I suppose, is why organized religion and I get along so very very poorly.

Mostly though, I find myself devastated and upset. I... don't really have more to say than that.

Having now read my students' papers on Agora, I am now upset and furious. Of the eight papers on the film, no less than five of them defend the poor poor abused Christians and the "unscrupulous" accusations against St. Cyril (don't get me started on some of the people who are saints), how dare anyone blame them for the destruction of the Sarapeum and flaying Hypatia alive with broken pottery?!
bardic_lady: (relic hunter - smart is sexy)
So, I finished my MA essay draft about five minutes ago. It is therefore a perfect time for me to write some more! ... ... Oh my life.

Anyway, this is fun in my brain writing, not academic writing and that makes all the difference in the world.

Important piece of info so I only sound slightly crazy, not psychologically disturbed: I RP Kara "Starbuck" Thrace in an LJ RP community. So when I say that there's a fighter jock in my head, it's not a comment on multiple personalities, it's just a pup

Today, the lovely and talented Geek Girl Diva posted a link on Twitter to a new statue of a character from Zach Snyder's upcoming film, Sucker Punch. I will confess off the top that I knew exactly 0 about the film going into this (I now know slightly more).

The blurb about the sculpt includes the information that this includes "authentic flight suit costuming". The badass Viper jock in my head fell out of her chair laughing and couldn't stop. The detail-oriented feminist (that would be me) started to catalogue the things that are wrong with this picture, from the perspective of that Viper jock.

Why in the universe would you want to wear fishnets in the cockpit for hours on end?
The chaps would just chafe in awkward places
There's nowhere to put an emergency you've-been-on-CAP-for-7-hours bathroom alternative (VERY IMPORTANT)
The laces up the sides mean that it must take ages to get into and how is that good when the alert is called and you should be out of bed and in the cockpit in 20 minutes or less?
It's not like there's a) air or b) heat in the cockpit, so having a bare midriff is the stupidest thing ever. (Even if you're an atmospheric pilot not a space pilot, there's a reason there's a flight suit, and that reason is protection. This suit? No protection. If there's a spark and something on your instrument panel catches fire, do you really want a toasted tummy?)
Corsetry? When you're stuffed into a ship for hours?
If you have to constantly switch between rudder and thrust and braking pedals, why would you wear HEELS? (Also applies to crash situations where who knows what conditions you're hiking through)
She has a gun, but she doesn't appear to have anywhere to keep it, which is just dumb. (Sidenote: If there is in fact a shoulder holster on her other side, it's still dumb because how do you handle the controls when there's a gun restricting your arm movements on your left side?)
The crossed straps in the back would be easy to tangle which is not good for speed dressing, and if they got tangled and then you were forced to lean back on them for a 5-7 hour CAP shift?
Plus, who wants something that buckles behind them?
The low zip on the top provides 0 protection against things like bullets in ground situations
Kara ejected into space and crashed on a low atmosphere desert moon. If she had been wearing this, she would be extremely dead. (Once again, even if you fly in atmo, this suit is going to offer you no protection against sharp things, hard things, being slammed around by crash forces, or anything else)
If she was being dragged along by her 'chute and caught her knee on a sharp rock (as happened to Kara and could happen to any ejecting pilot) she wouldn't've broken her knee, she would've lost everything below that knee wearing this.
Your flightsuit should be at least semi-comfortable because you shouldn't be thinking about the thing digging into your boob when you're pulling 3 or 4g's.
It has no pockets. Where are you supposed to keep your pencil and notebook and cigars and lighter and gum and first aid kit and stuff?

Now, I did look up the film after all the ranting. Jess suggested that the movie is based on a comic, which wouldn't be an excuse, but it might be an explanation at least. It isn't though, it's an original from the guy who brought you 300.
Here's an actual promo shot of the costume:

I read the plot synopsis which sort of answered some questions and brought up a whole set of new ones. Apparently a lot of the movie takes place in the imaginations of a group of girls in an asylum in the 50s. So, imagination kind of helps with the practicality issues, from a design standpoint. It's unlikely that a girl in the 50s is going to imagine her flightsuit with appropriate practical military details. On the other hand, this is what I'm supposed to believe a girl, a young girl according to the plot summary, in the 1950s imagines a pilot looks like? Seriously?

(From a feminist film analysis perspective, notice that the outfit divides her body up into convenient bits, reducing her from a whole person to a collection of girl parts.)

And before anyone jumps down my throat, I am a third-wave feminist. I absolutely believe that women have the right to dress how ever they want to. If a woman wants to wear skintight and low-cut, more power to her. But this is pure fantasy material. If nothing else, it says that the girl doing the imagining is more interested in showing skin than in being able to do the job she imagines herself doing.

@GeekGirlDiva, yeah, if you're into that look, sure it's sexy. As a "sexy pilot" Halloween costume, sure. But in a major motion picture release that's touting being a film with all female leads (Congrats, Warner Bros., do you expect a gold star for that?) it's titillating without substance. Do we really need another woman prancing around in her underwear in a movie directed by a guy who's not exactly known for his sensitivity to female characters? Do we need another female character dressed like she'd fit better in a lad mag than anywhere else?

I'm irritated.

And exhausted. I'm going to put on some Mythbusters and go to sleep.
bardic_lady: (parker - angry place)
SO. I am never eating at Edo again.

Went into downtown today, foraging for beads and wire and to replace a couple things I lost in Ashland. Ate at the Bay Centre, as I usually do in downtown. Went Edo, which is sort of a combination of Mongolian BBQ with very few choices and basic meat and noodles Japanese. My order was the first one on the line and the grill guy put in the veggies and the noodles and the meat and then starting piling up a plate for the guy behind me in line. I was ready to take it away and eat it while it was hot, but first I did as I usually do and asked for extra sauce. He looked at me and grinned and said "Men first" and finished the guy behind me's plate before putting extra sauce on mine.

I swear, my whole brain went into WTF shock. So. Angry. Never ever eating there again. EVER.
bardic_lady: (starbuck - don't make me come over)
In case anyone is wondering, this is why we can't have nice things.

bardic_lady: (wiffle bat of justice)
Feminism, it's not just for women...

So, CBS has decided, as a cost-cutting measure, to fire AJ Cook and dramatically reduce the role of Paget Brewster on Criminal Minds. Leaving one full time female character. *HEADDESK* If you find this deeply annoying, consider signing this petition. Please.

bardic_lady: (shakespeare - srs academic)

[ profile] dramaturgca: I am so tired of beating my head against this "pseudo-males" thing
[ profile] corchen: *huggles*
[ profile] dramaturgca: I don't understand. The logic breaks in my head
[ profile] dramaturgca: “These characters exhibit traits that we have decided are masculine. Ergo, they must be men. What's that you say?! They're women?! No, those traits are exclusively male, according to the rules that I just made up, therefore they cannot be real women, they must be pseudo-males!”
[ profile] corchen: #
[ profile] dramaturgca: Where in my head it goes "We decided these traits are going to be masculine. Wait, women exhibit the traits, too? Well then, THEY MUST NOT BE EXCLUSIVELY MASCULINE!"
[ profile] dramaturgca: problem solved! let's have cake!
[ profile] corchen: ahahaha
[ profile] corchen: misogynistic cake
[ profile] dramaturgca: no, my cake is not misogynistic
[ profile] dramaturgca: my cake is inclusive
[ profile] dramaturgca: their cake would be misogynistic, but they haven't solved the problem so they don't get cake
[ profile] corchen: aaaah
[ profile] dramaturgca: my cake says traits are not exclusively assigned to one gender and also that gender itself is non-binary in nature
[ profile] dramaturgca: their cake says binary binary binary live in the binary or we will kick you out of your gender which is also a binary.
[ profile] corchen: *laughs* have you had enough sleep? or, indeed, any sleep?
[ profile] dramaturgca: some
[ profile] corchen: not enough, you're very silly and you get sillier when you need sleep
[ profile] dramaturgca: soon. sleep soon
[ profile] dramaturgca: sleep in three paragraphs and a conclusion
[ profile] corchen: *nod* okay
[ profile] dramaturgca: or when I pass out. whichever happens first
bardic_lady: (shakespeare - srs academic)
I'm taking a poll, who would you say is the most famous damsel in distress in all of literature/media? The apex of needs a man to come and rescue her?

Suggested so far:
Snow White
Sleeping Beauty
Maid Marian
Peach (Mario)
Ilsa (Casablanca)
Lois Lane
Bella (Twilight :( )

(Hint: I'm looking for the antithesis of Starbuck in "You Can't Go Home Again")
bardic_lady: (starbuck - hate you. a lot.)
DIRK BENEDICT DOESN'T APPROVE OF RECENT BSG SERIES BECAUSE STARBUCK IS A WOMAN! (Also possibly because she's a way better actor, gets more tail, and is approximately ninety bafrillion times more badass and awesome than he is)
I mean... wait... We've known that since like 2003. WHY IS THIS NEWS?!

Speaking of Our Lady of Perpetual Bad Career Choices Katee Sackhoff, it's UpFronts week, has anyone seen or heard anything about Boston's Finest?

Also on the BSG alumni front, Jamie Bamber gets BBC sci-fi series filmed in...South Africa? Okay, sure! He may even be the resident stud, wouldn't that be fun and different?

In more serious news, the world continues to fail at gender in almost all possible ways, but especially the WTF AAP?! way. Read this. Then this. And this. Then come up with a way that we can make our displeasure VERY LOUDLY KNOWN.
bardic_lady: (wiffle bat of justice)

Thing the first:
The dumb, my students has it.

Thing the second:
The fail, UVic registrar has it. The date for the final I invigilate has been announced. I have no finals to take myself. Classes end April 8. The final I invigilate? April 26. FAIL REGISTRAR, FAIL.

Thing the third:
A Virginia state legislator has announced that disabled children are God's punishment for abortions.

Thing the fourth:
Both the house and senate of Utah have passed a bill outlawing miscarriage. Don't try to apply logic, it won't work.

In conclusion, FAIL WORLD.
bardic_lady: (starbuck - hate you. a lot.)
Women warriors, round two.

So, here's the thing. I kind of have a list at this point of genre women warriors (so, I'm not including Olivia Benson or Ziva David, for example):
Xena (Xena: Warrior Princess)
Buffy (Buffy the Vampire Slayer)
Aeryn Sun (Farscape)
Sarah Connor (Terminator, The Sarah Connor Chronicles)
Max Guevara (Dark Angel)
Ellen Ripley (Alien films)
Sara Pezzini (Witchblade)
Kara Thrace (Battlestar Galactica)

Of the eight women on this list, six committed suicide. At least five were raped, or nearly raped (I don't know enough about Farscape or Dark Angel to say). I am so vastly Not Okay with this. Now I have a paper topic. But it's not going to make for happy writing.

::edit:: 4am thoughts.
Xena suicided, not raped. She had two children during the series, one alive at the end.
Buffy suicided, also nearly raped. No children.
Aeryn attempted suicide, I don't know about rape. No children during the series, one in a post-series mini.
Sarah, as far as I know, is the exciting exception, neither a rape nor a suicide. She is however, a mother. In the series in particular, her main role is as mother.
Max suicided, I can't say anything about rape. No children.
Ellen suicided, in order to destroy her child, the product of unwilling implantation.
Sara Pezzini did not die! She was however, raped while in a coma and bore the child of her rape.
Kara Thrace suicided. There's the strong implication (nigh on to certainty) that she was raped, certainly brainwashed. She never had a child and was strongly opposed to the concept of being a mother.

Is there a connection? Don't know...
bardic_lady: (starbuck - excuse me?)
It's insidious and far more present than I really realized. In modern genre tv, when there are women warriors, they kill themselves. Not every single one of them, but damn a lot of them. Just finished reading "The Cruelest Season" by Sara Crosby in the anthology Action Chicks. Crosby points out that in the 2001 tv season, Max Guevara of Dark Angel, Buffy, Captain Janeway, Zhaan of Farscape, Prue of Charmed, and Xena all committed suicide. All of them. Obviously, not all of them stayed dead, but they all killed themselves. As I start to work out my paper on Starbuck as the next generation of woman warrior, more societally integrated and less hypersexualized than her predecessors, I realize... Kara committed suicide, too. And now I'm sitting up at 3:30am trying to come up with a woman warrior who didn't (returning from the dead in whatever way is NOT an excuse). And I'm coming up dry. And it's PISSING ME OFF. Why do ALL the genre woman warriors kill themselves? It isn't just death in battle, it's either self-inflicted death out of battle or throwing herself into a situation in which she has no hope of survival. Suicide by cop/opposing army still counts. Ivanova escapes her death by opposing army, but only at the cost of someone else's entire life force meaning that she basically did kill herself, her particular universe had a way of fixing it.

What the hell? Seriously, guys, this is pissing me the hell off.

(Over the course of writing this, I have come up with Zoe Washbourne. So... That's one.)

January 2015



I Cannot Hide What I Am

I must be sad when I have cause and smile
at no man's jests, eat when I have stomach and wait
for no man's leisure, sleep when I am drowsy and
tend on no man's business, laugh when I am merry and
claw no man in his humour...
I had rather be a canker in a hedge than a rose in
his grace, and it better fits my blood to be
disdained of all than to fashion a carriage to rob
love from any: in this, though I cannot be said to
be a flattering honest man, it must not be denied
but I am a plain-dealing villain. I am trusted with
a muzzle and enfranchised with a clog; therefore I
have decreed not to sing in my cage. If I had my
mouth, I would bite; if I had my liberty, I would do
my liking: in the meantime let me be that I am and
seek not to alter me.

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